Rapper Noel expressed his feelings after completing the funeral of his late father, former lawmaker Jang Je-won.
On the 7th, Noel posted a lengthy message on his social media, stating, "I have taken care of my father with great care for three days. On the day of the funeral, the weather was particularly clear and warm, making me unsure whether to be happy or to feel heartbroken. Even now, the feeling of sadness doesn't seem to resonate with me."
He continued, "Perhaps it's because I'm in shock, or maybe it's the sorrow of not being able to share a meal with my father on his upcoming birthday, or the guilt I feel for having only been a hindrance to him at significant crossroads in life, or perhaps it's because I, as a son who resolved to live properly again, have never been able to show him a pure and happy smile after succeeding. My heart is truly complicated and delicate."
He added, "It felt as if he was conveying a message to me to stay alert and not to let my guard down, to live by accumulating good virtues, especially for my mother," and expressed gratitude to friends and local residents who were present at the funeral.
Noel also stated, "It was an incredibly fearful, overwhelming, gloomy, and heartbreaking time. However, looking back, I realize that I have made many mistakes in my life, and I deeply reflect on them. I believe this will be an opportunity for me to become a responsible person who knows how to give and take care of precious people, living more firmly as a head of the family and as an adult. I will live more fiercely from now on."
Former lawmaker Jang Je-won was found dead on March 31 at 11:40 PM in an officetel in Gangdong-gu, Seoul. A note believed to be written by him was found at the scene. His funeral was held at Busan Haeundae Baek Hospital, and his remains were cremated at Yeongnak Park after the funeral ceremony on the 4th and were interred at Busan Siloam Park Cemetery.
[Lee Da-gyeom, Star Today Reporter]
