Gain of the group Brown Eyed Girls, who took time for self-reflection after the controversy over propofol use, shared her feelings.
On the 11th, a video titled ‘Sloong's Girlsongtop | Fourth Guest Son Gain’ was posted on the YouTube channel ‘Ong Style’.
When Im Sloong asked about her recent situation in the video, Gain said, “There was some incident, right? I was not doing well mentally and health-wise. Depression, insomnia, panic disorder—these are things that come up a lot when we work. I ended up spending a lot of time at home.”
She continued, “My mom was running a store and she dragged me out. I said I couldn’t go. There were 6-7 employees, and at that time, there were bad articles about me. I said I wouldn’t go, but she took me the next day. So I went out, but the first week was really tough. Everyone must have known about me from the articles, and just working with those friends was really hard.”
She added, “But after a day or two, I started working almost every day, and when I came home, I was so exhausted that I just slept. I didn’t even look at my phone. I started working without having done part-time jobs when I was younger. My mom started leaving things to me, and my responsibilities increased. So I left work with the employees.”
Gain also said, “I started work around 3-4 PM and finished around 11-12 PM. Since I had to go to work the next day, there was no time to feel lonely when I got home. I would eat while watching Netflix, clean, stretch, and then fall asleep. The way my mom raised me suited me. I feel like I could cry. My mom must have had a hard time behind the scenes. I think that moment saved me now,” and she shed tears.
Gain expressed her gratitude, saying, “I was really thankful that people recognized me but didn’t talk about it. They really didn’t say anything. I was grateful. Many people helped me to work comfortably. The employees also didn’t talk about it elsewhere. I was very thankful.”
She continued, “What I was most grateful for was my mom. Otherwise, I wonder how I would have been now, how I would have endured these three years. I feel a bit sorry for my mom because when I was young and doing well, I didn’t reach out to her, but when things got tough, I had to ask her for help. So I have a strong desire to do well and repay her kindness.”
Gain was fined 1 million won in 2019 for charges of propofol use. At that time, her agency stated, “Gain has suffered from severe pain, depression, and severe sleep disorders due to accumulated injuries during her activities. In that process, she made an unwise choice.”
